Sunday, August 12, 2012

A week later

Well a week later give or take and I am winding down for the night. It is amazing the difference a week makes to your outlook ( give or take a couple of days lol). I made it through about 9 days without eating out ( sorry but chi town hotdogs doesn't count as ember needed food). I feel better for it and is weird I almost feel hungrier not eating out. Think it says a lot about how non portion controlled restaurants are.

My goal is to make it to the end of the month and being able to say my eating out budget is sub 40 bucks. I hope that as well as saying that I will also be below the 219 I was last month and the angry Scot won't appear again.

Peace out and have a great Monday tomorrow.


Tuesday, August 7, 2012


It's been a while since I posted and I just feel in the mood to post.

Weight - Sucks, gain this month from being half assed, up to 227 so getting my act together.

Some days I feel that it's all a waste of time getting myself healthy. Really what's the point? Well for me and what I tell myself is that it's life. I lived it as a fat ass and it was not fun. Imagine going to a fairground or a park and being told you are too big. Imagine people looking at you and thinking that you obviously eat way to much. Well I have been there it's not fun and it brings your self esteem waaaaaay down. I look in the mirror today and I am starting to see someone I like being. Yeah I have work needing to be done but I am over 100 pounds lighter than my recorded heaviest.
If people don't like me for it or don't want to know me then they can take a long walk off a short pier. If people don't want to get to know me, or wanted to get to know me, then they can kiss my Scottish arse. Their loss in life.

As I go forward I need to realize that the one person that will be there for me is myself. If I don't take care of him then I may lose him ( yeah I'm talking third person). I hope by realizing this that I will continue my journey more focused and with better self esteem. As I have already said if people don't want to join me on my journey or visit then it's their loss because I think the destination is worth this trip complete with its little bumps.

Have a great day everyone

I know I will