Meh

Yeah it's been a few weeks, weight 298! Went to Dr for other stuff, end up leaving with meds to help high BP. WTF am I doing, am I trying to kill myself. Lose some weight I am to come off and check it again, also to check while on which will give a good baseline.

Meh that's all for now.

S

Weigh in

Weighed in for the last few weeks. Thankfully down to 291lbs. Hopefully I can continue the downward momentum and I can keep seeing the weight I saw the last time. It took hitting 300 again for something g to change I think but it should not have had to Happen!!! 

Thing about primal is it realizes you cannot be perfect all the time so why was it so easy to be imperfect when eating all the time. Using myfitnesspal this time around to keep track of food n excersize so again here's hoping (also helps I'm using the blogger app to post).

Laters S.

A couple of weeks pass

Well it's now almost 2 weeks, still here, thankfully still primal. No weight for now, my plan is to weigh in Sunday morning (I have a haircut tomorrow so want as much weight loss as possible lol) as it will be the closest to 2 actual weeks and I will see how things fair. 

That's all for now 

S,

It's a creep!!!!

Well it's been a long time and I kept trying to post as I had been but I guess life interrupts.

As the last year has progressed a lot has changed, I have a new job working from home (no 2 hrs lost each day driving), I am teaching as an adjunct and for the last year to 18 months my weight has crept back up and is currently at 300lbs.

Let me be first to say that IT SUCKS!!!! the first steps I am taking is realizing I am freaking fat again and where I said I would not end up again. I know why it happened and I was, unfortunately, a willing participant. It was as simple as straying from primal and not keeping a check on my caloric input, at the same time not exercising  and cycling. I can blame it on my work sending me to multiple locations and having to eat out but I COULD have picked better.

Well here yah go. I have said it, I am working on day 2 of my primal detox and I'm ready to get down to where I was (219). 81 pounds, 2 LARGE dog food bags less. Hopefully as time progresses I can update on my journey again.

Laters S.

Long hiatus

It's been a while since I posted and its been a while (4 months) since I have watched what I ate and been primal. Yeah I fell off primal and have procrastinated ever since. What has changed? Well first I have gained 29 pounds since my low of 219. Yup I am back up to 248 and I am not happy about it at all.

What else has changed? I don't know but I know I'm not happy with what I see in the mirror again, I can't fit into the 36 jeans anymore and I just feel I have to do something. It's hard though, this is only 3 hours into day one and I can feel the sugar in my system rebelling, trying to persuade me that one more week/day won't hurt. It will.

I have always used this as a tool in my battle of health and fitness and I hope it is going to be there for me again.

Laters S.

A week later

Well a week later give or take and I am winding down for the night. It is amazing the difference a week makes to your outlook ( give or take a couple of days lol). I made it through about 9 days without eating out ( sorry but chi town hotdogs doesn't count as ember needed food). I feel better for it and is weird I almost feel hungrier not eating out. Think it says a lot about how non portion controlled restaurants are.

My goal is to make it to the end of the month and being able to say my eating out budget is sub 40 bucks. I hope that as well as saying that I will also be below the 219 I was last month and the angry Scot won't appear again.

Peace out and have a great Monday tomorrow.

S.

Thoughts

It's been a while since I posted and I just feel in the mood to post.

Weight - Sucks, gain this month from being half assed, up to 227 so getting my act together.

Some days I feel that it's all a waste of time getting myself healthy. Really what's the point? Well for me and what I tell myself is that it's life. I lived it as a fat ass and it was not fun. Imagine going to a fairground or a park and being told you are too big. Imagine people looking at you and thinking that you obviously eat way to much. Well I have been there it's not fun and it brings your self esteem waaaaaay down. I look in the mirror today and I am starting to see someone I like being. Yeah I have work needing to be done but I am over 100 pounds lighter than my recorded heaviest.
If people don't like me for it or don't want to know me then they can take a long walk off a short pier. If people don't want to get to know me, or wanted to get to know me, then they can kiss my Scottish arse. Their loss in life.

As I go forward I need to realize that the one person that will be there for me is myself. If I don't take care of him then I may lose him ( yeah I'm talking third person). I hope by realizing this that I will continue my journey more focused and with better self esteem. As I have already said if people don't want to join me on my journey or visit then it's their loss because I think the destination is worth this trip complete with its little bumps.

Have a great day everyone

I know I will

S